Sometimes it doesn’t just rain; it pours. The last couple weeks have been like that for me.
But for starters, I’ll preface this gloominess with some sunshine. I got engaged to the love of my life! It was the happiest day of my life and I could not be more thankful to God that He blessed me with such a man.
That being said, wedding planning can be a nightmare at times. Between listening to multiple people’s opinions, trying to find a hall, waiting to hear back from halls, not having money for said halls, finding a photographer and florist, and remembering that we haven’t even gotten to the dress, I got a little stressed out a little soon in the year.
But then things settled down.
For about a week.
For you see, I’m still in school. Senior year, woo! And with that comes more challenges. Like taking eight classes. Or adding on another part-time job. And then there’s the fun status of being a commuter. And maybe I’ll have lunch today? We’ll see. At the end of the week, I’m too tired to draw, or play guitar, or even write my book.
And yet, life was just not interesting enough.
Friday, my car decided to stop working. At first,I thought it was just coolant. As it turns out, I need a new head gasket. So what went from a $15 fix is now a $2,600 fix. Did I mention I didn’t buy all my textbooks yet either?
So today as I drove home from one state to home in my fiancé’s also slowly dying car, it rained. And it was dark. But I was with the man I love. I am within walking distance from school, even with the snow. I have food and a place to stay. I have jobs.
And in spite of the storm brewing outside, I know there will be a rainbow tomorrow.
Now the rainbow is not just bouncing light through water in the air, it is a symbol of God’s promises to us. It is enduring. First, a promise that He won’t flood the earth again. But God promises us other things too. He promises to love us, guide us, and give us our daily bread (Proverbs 30:8-9). Sometimes He trying to push us to trust; and we have to remember we live in a fallen world. A world that still adheres to the 2nd law of thermodynamics no matter how much we protest it.
And yet God endures. I have to remind myself that He is still taking care of me. I have legs to walk, and a place to live. I can continue to eat pizza for one more week even though I’m about sick of it. I have a fiancé who loves me. And most of all, I have a God who cares for me, loves me, and who died for me.
Right now, it’s still raining. But God’s promises will endure as He is enduring. And that will be true in spite of our circumstances.
I love you, O LORD, my strength.
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn if my salvation, my stronghold.
I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
And I am saved by my enemies.
~ Psalm 18:1-3 ~
God’s peace and ever-present comfort be with you all,